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Here's to summer...

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 21:03:05 GMT

Thoughts on redemption ...

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 04:27:50 GMT

In 2 Corinthians 5:21, the apostle Paul says that “God made him who knew no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”

Although it’s still a mystery to me, I am starting to realize that the Cross is powerful and that redemption is a beautiful exchange. God sent His only son to be the source of hope in a dark world. Jesus lived a perfect and blameless life in the sight of God. He humbled Himself by carrying the weight of the world’s sins to the cross. His blood became the ransom for the sins of all men.

An exchange in heaven had to occur so that I may be forgiven and experience life to the full. Jesus bought me for a price and that price resulted in His crucifixion. According to John 10:10, Jesus says that “the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they have may have life, and have it to the full.” The power of Satan has been at work in my life and it is very real. The thief really does “steal and kill and destroy” and that should be taken in the most literal way possible.

The wounds of Jesus and the mighty power of the Cross are the only way to fill the emptiness and mend our brokenness. Satan uses the full extent of his power to steal our one and only source of hope. The thief will do anything and everything to destroy the beauty of the exchange so that we are unable to even comprehend what it means to “become the righteousness of God”.

Only the power of the Cross may release these chains. Only Your pain can fill this emptiness. Only Your pain can heal my brokenness. Only by Your wounds may I be healed. How I need the Cross; carry me to the Cross. Although it’s such a mystery, it remains a miracle to me. Mighty is the powerful Cross. Thank you, Jesus, for by Your wounds I am healed. By Your wounds I am filled. Thank you the power of the Cross.

I just don't understand...

Sun, 25 May 2008 23:25:32 GMT

How is it possible to know what is true? How can you claim to love God and yet constantly sin? If you are really following Christ, wouldn't you love Godly things and hate worldly things? Why doesn't God just turn his back? Why is He willing to forgive so many times? How is it possible for God to love us when He sees everything? Is it even possible to love unconditionally? How can you claim to love unconditionally when everything has a condition? Why do you have to act a certain way to be accepted by the church? If God loves everyone, then why can't His followers accept people the way God made them? Is being different from the ordinary really a sin? Why would you want to be fake when you could just be yourself? Should you really feel you have the power to comment on the way someone else is living their life when your life is full of sin as well? Why do you find it so easy to point out others' faults? Do you really think someone is going to listen to what you have to say about God when you live a two-faced life? Why do you act one way around your church friends and another way when you are at a party with your "other friends"? Why does short-lived happiness create more pain the end? Why do you attempt to find fulfilment this way? Do you honestly think that God overlooks the hypocracy of it all? If you love God, then why is it so conditional? Why do you think that being a "Christian" makes you better than everyone else? If you feel that you must boast about advancing God's kingdom, then did you really have your heart set on pleasing God in the first place? Are you just trying to please those around you? Why do you have to "humble" yourself when you never were great in the first place?

Why does everything have to be so temporary?

Califlorida sunsets and things like chemistry?

Mon, 12 May 2008 04:41:57 GMT

It's been two weeks since I flew out of Sacramento. It's a long plane ride back to Florida, so I had a lot of alone time to to reflect on the memories: the good, the bad, the mediocre.

I will warn you that this may sound incredible cliche. It may not make any sense at all, but I don't know how else to describe it.................

Have you ever seen an incredible, beaming sunset creeping behind a mountain range? I love the way a sunset can illuminate distant palm trees and make them look like they are on fire. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze life at certain points of interest. I could have attempted to capture the moment on film, but it would be impossible to caputure the beauty of that moment. If a picture doesn't do it justice, then you can imagine how hard it must be to try to describe it with mere words on page. I have come to the realization that some situations simply cannot be captured with using words.

Keeping that sunset picture in the back of your mind, let me attempt to describe the past eight months of my life. I have found that it is nearly impossible to describe them using words. Let me start off saying that, although the past few months have been incredible, they have not in any way been perfect. At certain times, I felt a sudden urge to turn my chemistry book into a blazing firecracker. At other times, I fell in love with the complexity of the sciences. At certain times, my mind was haunted by some of the the things I did, yet probably shouldn't have. At other times, I could not bring myself to having the slightest regret for doing those things, because I was having the time of my life.

I cannot begin to describe the incredible friendships I have made. I just keep going back to the sunset memory ingraved in the back of my mind. Somethings are too complex to describe in words. As much as I try to convince myself that it doesn't add up, I can't help to picture friendships like the sun. Sometimes you are many miles apart from those that mean the most. As hard as it is to say goodbye to good friends, it is comforting to know that you will see them again. There is so much beauty in a sunset, because you know that the sunrise is coming. I know that the reunion, the sunrise, will bring memories just as incredible as the depature and it gives me hope. It's well worth the wait.

On that note, it's going to be a long summer. But that reminds me of the time when......... nah, just kidding. Okay, I'm done now. Goodnight. :)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 04:17:47 GMT

so i live in california now... and it's awesome! actually, college really sucks sometimes, but i still love california so much. i love the mountains and i love the people. most of all i love how everyone is just plain chill and always ready to do something totally random.

well biology is a hella hard major and gets old sometimes, but i really hope to make it to medical school someday. we'll see what happens.

life sucksssss

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 00:59:00 GMT

jill says it's time for an update. she says to put "whatever you feel amy". hahaha.

i just moved...again. i swear i come from a nomadic family. haha. yeah i really have no idea what to write about... my life sucks pretty bad right now.

sooo yeahhh i'm prolly gonna come back on here in about a year or so and read this and start laughing at myself for wasting time writing a pointless blog about how much i hate my life. hahaha.

it happens.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 17:16:03 GMT

Life's craaazzzzyyyy!!!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 02:52:50 GMT

Surf's up! Waaayyy up.

Yeaaah, so I'm sitting here listening to Far Away by Nickleback! Ahhh...goooood song.

Soooo....I had one of those life changing moments the other day. haha I got out skated by a cute little 4 year old kid at the local park. It was pretty crazy. He drops in the half pipe and perfectly lauches into another half pipe. That kid was fearless and knew how to tear apart a skate park!!! I've never seen a kid that small skate like that before. It was sooo amazing yet embarassed at the same time. I hope that I will be able to skate like him.........SOMEDAY. ;)

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 01:38:27 GMT

I miss my friends so much. I can't stop thinking about it. I even miss going to school.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 02:03:19 GMT

Yeaaaah, I don't know what to say.........=[